☆。喵仔間。☆

（2009.06.04～05期末呈現《第十二夜》＠北藝戲館T305）

時空感快速切換，旋而凝滯
像夢一般，乍醒後
面對著必須重新調整的秩序
恍惚間分不清真實感受

角色像朝露、像花火
霎時綻放，靜默永久
一次次褪下他們靜置記憶中
一次次重新認識，下一個我

　睽違劇場一年半，回來的第一檔演出，本以為會因離開一段時間而生疏，演出時才發現自己還沒忘了舞台感是什麼樣子。角色和觀眾的距離，同樣是那麼熟悉而親切，但我原本就不怎麼理想的口條似乎變差了！

　上班族堅持繼續做劇場是頗要命的事！白天工作、夜間排練，不斷切換著身分。某晚排戲後，我獨自賴在戲館不走，在這個來去幾百遍的角落，呼吸，享受著片刻靜謐。突然明白阿朱和家祥（這個說的是"陳"不是"張"）曾說過類似的話是怎麼回事，我也以為這時候才是真正的我，真正在生活。所以不要命的堅持更有其必要，也是退伍後便迫不及待上台北的原因。

　有幾天，我偷偷在MSN的小標上寫著這檔演出訊息，前面還加了「復出劇場首部曲」，意思是等了那麼久，終於回來了。馬媽把這件事告訴導演大任，害我有點不好意思，畢竟那時候我覺得自己根本還沒準備好，大概是幾年前同樣的期末呈現，我把潘第拉這角色搞砸的陰影還在，唉唷我的天。

　在這檔製作認識了一票不錯的演員，除了大任和都蘭小歌女，其他都是生面孔。他們都年輕且充滿活力，我想假裝這點但怎樣都沒辦法。首演前，我們在玻璃屋唱了好多歌；慶功宴，在紅樹林的天空下又唱了好多歌。第一首和最後一首是我一直很愛的Hotel California，意外地被標記成這檔製作的指定曲。只是慶功宴最後，黃吉尼彈吉他要找我唱，我已經茫到連單字都唱不好，明明酒量有限，還拼著「趕進度」就會變得很糗！真的很抱歉，希望大夥兒記得忘記這件事。

　再醒來之後，除了演出的那些歌、老爹的創作曲，還有這首Hotel California，回蕩在腦海的旋律，充滿第十二夜的記憶。謝謝你們。

Hotel California
by The Eagles
（點歌名連結YouTube，版本1976年Live）

On a dark desert highway, cool wind in my hair
Warm smell of colitas, rising up through the air
Up ahead in the distance, I saw a shimmering light
My head grew heavy and my sight grew dim
I had to stop for the night
There she stood in the doorway;
with the mission bell
And I was thinking to myself,
'This could be Heaven or this could be Hell'
Then she lit up a candle and she showed me the way
There were voices down the corridor,
I thought I heard them say...

Welcome to the Hotel California
Such a lovely place
Such a lovely face
Plenty of room at the Hotel California
Any time of year, you can find it here

Her mind is Tiffany-twisted, she
got the Mercedes Benz
She got a lot of pretty, pretty
boys, that she calls friends
How they dance in the courtyard, sweet summer sweat.
Some dance to remember, some dance to forget

So I called up the Captain,
'Please bring me my wine'
He said, 'We haven't had that spirit
here since nineteen sixty nine'
And still those voices are calling from far away,
Wake you up in the middle of the night
Just to hear them say...

Welcome to the Hotel California
Such a lovely place
Such a lovely face
They're livin' it up at the Hotel California
What a nice surprise, bring your alibis

Mirrors on the ceiling,
The pink champagne on ice
And she said 'We are all just
prisoners here, of our own device'
And in the master's chambers,
They gathered for the feast
They stab it with their steely knives,
But they just can't kill the beast

Last thing I remember, I was
Running for the door
I had to find the passage back
To the place I was before
'Relax,' said the night man,
We are programmed to receive.
You can checkout any time you like,
but you can never leave!